steps

i wish i knew how to let more people help me, because i think i have finally realized what a supportive team i have standing behind me. they arent basking in the glory of being right. they arent pushing me into a decision. they are just supportive. and im a me- doer. i have to do it. my way or the high way, but i wish i wasnt that way. i wish i could let the people who want to help me help me. but such is life i guess.

the last few days i have heard about steps, taking them one at a time. dont try to leap or jump or anything just take it step by step. i dont like steps, but since my way failed, were gonna do it this way. were gonna do things step by step. day by day. and i will be patient. and hopefully less stressed.

i have finally gotten a grasp of the whorl wind of events it seems, and am learning and growing from them. i still feel the disappointment in myself, but i am no longer letting it drive my actions. its simply in the backseat, or even better the trunk. i am driving my life now.

-manderz-

"You have forgotten who you are and so have forgotten me. Look inside yourself, Simba. You are more than what you have become. You must take your place in the Circle of Life." Mufasa- Lion King