my crazy life

so ive been busy. seeing as how my last post was in September, i mostly forgot. however, school is over now. not just semester one but semester two as well. semester one ended better than semester two, and its up in the air as to whether i can stay or not because after semester one i was put on academic probation. i guess that fills you in on the last six months or so. Its summer now, and i am enrolled in calculus at red rocks to make up for the credits i lost in the fall. i am stressed, because i dont know if i was able to bull my overall gpa up. i am not done attending CU boulder. I havent accomplished what i wanted to, or what i need to. I feel like there is no option, but i keep hearing that i will figure it out, which is true i guess. Recently, i learned that if i dont plan on attending school in the fall i need to move out, which is ok i guess. there isnt enough room here for me anymore anyways. I just am feeling down cuz i dont know if i can do it. Its a scary. So today, i went job hunting to get the process of looking for an apartment underway, and i got an interview. Lately i cant even believe my luck, and i know i should knock on wood now, but despite how bad things are looking there is always a light i guess.

-manderz-

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today" James Dean