doo da doo

-ish all good-

today was the first good day i have had in a while and despite the 3.5 hours of sleep, massive headache, and hyperextended knee it was productive. i would say that ninety percent of it was because of last night. which was just yay! and the other ten percent is me moving along in this process. last night i learned that there are steps and as pointless or dur dur dur as the steps might seem they must be taken. like when your a kid going up and down the stairs and its all find and dandy til you skip or miss one and then you eat shit. i think i missed a step. i know what i want. im not sure how to get it. but i know i have great people supporting me through this. and i love all of them to death. im sorry if you have needed me lately and i have been absent. i have been dealing with my own shit and it got to be to much to take care of everyone and i feel awful about it. so heres to the future cuz im done living in the past

-manderz-

"im like a puzzle but all of my pieces are jagged, if you can understand this, we can make some magic" -cant be tamed miley cyrus