in an attempt to end epic bordem

i will just write. even though i dont have much to say. i wish i did more today. i wish i could find the modivation to do something. but there is none. i want the summers i had like 6 years ago when all i would do is sit outside all day and play in the sun. those were awesome. as time goes on you grow up, and as you grow up you learn to take your own responsibilities. and i didnt do anything like that. all i did today was sit around wishing i could get out of my parents house. i didnt go anything productive about it. i could have gone and looked for a job. i could have done laundry. i could have done alot of things but all i did all day was sit around. i feel so lazy. i guess ill just have to make tomorrow better. because i do want to move on with my life, i dont want to live in mommy and daddys basement for the rest of my life. im tired of listening to mommy and daddy, and i want to have my own responisbilities. but on to something else

i hate how the fact that i failed is everywhere. everything reminding me that i couldnt do what my heart set on doing. maybe its a modivation to finish what i started. who knows. i think to night i will just get some good sleep and hit tomorrow like it owes me money.

-manderz-

"The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible" Arthur C Clarke