monthly update. =)

soooo, yes its only the 6th. buttt i also havent posted in a while. not like thats a big surprise. however nothing worth posting about has happened. not until now at least.

i got a new job last week because my hours got cut way back and i am trying to move out so i really need more hours that 4.5. also im really sick of the politics. im really excited and nervous about it, but how bad could hostessing be... right?

and then, some more big changes are happening. like the babe is moving into a house with his friends in a couple weeks. and there have been a zillion emotions associated with that. like excited and scared and left out an everything else. but i have come to terms with that but it took a while.

and finally, since i have been working less the reality of how not many friends i have has been more evident. and with that a zillion more emotions of loneliness and sad came about. it sucks, knowing that you have not many friends left because they either went to school, or moved away, or you have some sort of beef with.

i miss being able to just hang out and not really do anything. i miss having someone to talk to especially about boys. i mean the boyfriend is great, dont get me wrong, but i need girlfriends too. and its not like i dont have them. i just wish i had a best friend per say. someone i could get a place with, without worrying and what not.

.manderz.

"Everyone wants happiness, no one wants pain, but you can't make a rainbow without a little rain."