no not november

i mean seriously.... look at our faces

so tonight, i was convinced by a friend that November may potentially be the worst month for relationships. and i fell into the trap that i set for myself woven with self doubt and probably the worst self confidence almost ever. and well, we talked about things and long story short i feel tons better. =) and i guess what makes me smile more than anything else is the fact that nothing is official. and yet he is making promises that i feel are more genuine than ever. and i feel that almost the fear of losing him, has turning into the excitement of keeping him. and maybe i sound cocky, and should knock on wood, but i truly love this kid. like- i cant explain it. if u know me you know. if you know us- you know, and even more so if you know me without him- you know. he is the best thing that has ever been mine, and im sure your really sick of hearing that right now, but i cant think of a better way to put it. he just completes me, and makes me a better person. im more confident with him around. and i dont think this is necessarily even post worthy, but i gotta tell someone cuz if i dont i wont be able to sleep and will potentially just burst. which definately wouldnt be good, and i mean i could tell him, but i cant fit all of this into a text, and he is sleeping and i dont want to wake him up again. so here it is, on the internet for everyone to see. =) on a different note; i would love to just add that i love how i can be 100% me when im with him. and that he knows how to make me laugh.