holy shit... its december!!!

where did the year go?? like for serious. chirstmas is 24 days away. hot dang. i cant believe last year i was worrying about finals and school stuff. and i still dont miss it. i cant believe 12 months ago i randomly i got my tongue pierced and that my world has come full circle. this year, has been the hardest, best year of my life this far. i have faced, challenged and dealt with more problems than i thought i would. im thankful for the people that have found a way back into my life. you guys are one of the best support systems ever. and for the people who couldnt make it into my life this far, thank you too. you have taught me more than i think you intended. this time of year always makes me count my blessings and truly realize what i have and how great i have it, and this sounds so cheesy and like the end of the year blog, but that totally wasnt the point. i was a realization on my part that 12 months ago i wasnt the person i am right now. i was an insecure teenager afraid of getting hurt, and wanting to defy all odds against her. now, i consider myself a grown woman, with way more confidence and ready to take on the rest of her demons. i know i still have a long ways to go, but who doesnt.

for those of you i hurt, i truly am sorry, and hope someday you can find it in your heart to forgive me. its not in my nature to apologize for something i felt wasnt wrong. it doesnt make sense to me, but i can definately apologize for hurting yall. but that doesnt mean im gonna go kiss ur ass either.

as for right now, im gonna take in and enjoy the best part of the holidays and their spirit with the people closest to me. hot chocolate, iceskating, christmas lights, 16th street, etc.

i love you all.
manderz


Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful. ~Norman Vincent Peale