never gonna be alone

so i havent posted in a while, and mostly thats because i dont have much to say. cuz i dont want to bitch all over the internet. but in the past couple of days 3 things have been decided.

1. im going back to school as soon as i move out.
2. i am going to be the confident person i was
3. your never going to be alone again

in the past month i have realized that i have lost more of myself that i have realised. but im torn. i don't want to go to the place that i was, but i don't want to be in the place that i am. and the only way out seems to be up. which is fine, i can deal with up, but what i find hardest is to express why it upsets me and why im stressed without revealing the fact that i was broken last year. all the hurt that went along with leaving. i dont want to bring that up, because i wasnt the only person who suffered, and i know people suffered greater losses, and feel like it was all for nothing. i cant imagine how bad that hurts. =/ anyway... thats whats up.

.manderz.

"Without continual growth and progress, such words as improvement, achievement, and success have no meaning."